I will enter 24 years old this year. I’m so lost and numb. I despise the current version of myself at 24. Feeling devoid of any achievements and capability. I choose to write this to release my mind. Hoping that this will alleviate some of the burdens on my thoughts. Ya Allah, I truly detest my current existence. I feel bad, unworthy, and find nothing to be proud of in myself. I am deeply ashamed, especially in front of Allah, for committing many sins without realizing the abundant blessings that Allah has bestowed upon me. I feel shame towards my parents even shame to myself. Surely, even my past self would be ashamed of me. My life feels incredibly heavy. This is not the life that I expected at 24. I feel lonely. Extremely lonely. I have no friends. I lacks of any achievements or something to be proud of. I am not as skilled as others. I'm not active in extracurricular activities like others. Well but I do interested in speaking ! But I don't know how to develop this...